Mouse says:Okay I have a question and this might be easier for me to asked because I don't have to hear and/or see your reaction
Mouse says:Have you had sex?
Peter says:oh man...
Mouse says:lol
Peter says:why
Mouse says:just a question
Peter says:do i godda awnswer it?
Mouse says:yes
Mouse says:lol you poor thing
Peter says:i will answer if you really wanna know
Mouse says:I do
Mouse says:Its not that hard you type two or three letters
Peter says:yes
Mouse says:see that wasn't that hard
Peter says:actually it was..............
Mouse says:how so
Mouse says:?
Peter says:because i love you
Mouse says:and...
Mouse says:its not like you are telling me you killed a man... who cares if you have or not
Peter says:i killed someone
Mouse says:okay how is that easier then telling me if you have had sex before
Mouse says:men
Peter says:i really diddent kill some one
Mouse says:: Sings : Run away with my heart....run away with my love...my life and love might still go on....: Stops singing : sorry good song
Mouse says:I know that
Peter says:what ya singing
Mouse says:The Calling..."Go wherever you will go"
Peter says:emo?
Mouse says:no
Mouse says:christian
Peter says:im sorry
Mouse says:but funny that is one of their non-christina piece
Mouse says:brat
Peter says:no im sorry about breaking the news to you
Mouse says:what
Mouse says:you shouldn't be
Mouse says:I guessed as much
Peter says:c mon your wating and every thing (i would want to kill me)
Mouse says:you are not me... I don't care what you do or what you did...
Mouse says:just because I am waiting doesn't not mean everyone has to
Mouse says:((the not isn't to be there))
Peter says:look, i feel bad because i want to doo the same for you
Mouse says:don'
Mouse says:*don't feel bad
Peter says:i do and im not going to sleep tonight (i hope your happy)
Mouse says:oh come on Peter...don't feel bad...
Peter says:its too late
Mouse says:because that would make me feel bad for making you feel bad
Peter says:i love you
Mouse says:I love you to so stop feeling badly
Peter says:ok....
Mouse says:promis
Peter says:yea
Mouse says:good
Peter says:are you getting tired
Mouse says:because I love everything about you...even your past
Mouse says:nope wide awake..you
Peter says:your certanly the sweetest most understanding person i have ever met(awake)
Mouse says:thank you

I am buzzing I am so stocked right now!

You have no idea!

lol yeah happy happy joy joy happy happy joy joy


okay that is all she wrote

okay okay so I am back at school and loving it!

Not really I really wanted another snow day but I knew I wouldn't get it. I had to stay up still like 0400 to get this stupid portfolio done and yeah I still had to do some typing at school it sucked and I really just can't wait till I get to go home.

Eh okay that is all good bye

Okay so I have been thinking a lot...and the only reall reason I am putting this in this journal is because I know none of my friends look at this one...no one in fact looks at this one. Anyway I have been thinking about what happened with Frank. How good it was untill Peter called and untill I found out he did drugs...I was Happy or at least I think I was. I look back and I see me looking over Peter's photos and shit from Ohayocon...and the only thing I could ever think is I wish he would come back. I was with Adam and I was wishing and I was with Frank and I was wishing....All I ever do is wish and never once did it come true...I guess if you wish enough it does. I am so happy that I am with Peter but was it really what I wished for?  I mean I hardly let him kiss me. Maybe it is because I am trying to keep myself from being hurt...again....by him. I already know he is capable of doing it. I know it is in him to hurt me so maybe that is why I am holding back. Maybe that is why I still keep some much inside. Who knows. But I wish he would stay over more. I didn't have a bad dream the whole time he was in Akron. Even when I wasn't in his arms I wasn't crying out in pain in my mind. I didn't wake in the midle of the night and I didn't cry out in my sleep. I really felt safe...but still I hold back. Or maybe I am not dreaming about Cole and all of that pain when I am dreaming...maybe just maybe I am dreaming about losing him and when he is there I know that he is in my arms and I have nothing to fear and then when he is gone there is no real turth to make me believe he will come back...He even commented on it once. About how I am "shy" around him. I am not "shy" just protective. In the end I only need to make me happy right?

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v509/ruckyou/6a8c66a7.jpg good times...Peter came over on New Years and we hung out with Joey Stephen Jess and John...Chris stopped by for a bit but nothing too big.... him and Peter seemed to get along well so I am happy about that...

You have no idea who or what I am talking about...blah....its because Melo is down that I am writing in here...I should keep up with this one as well....Blah....but no one ever reads this one unless Melo is down so there really is no point for me to be redundent.....Go figs once Lindsey comes back to Melo it crashes...lol...Love ya linds....

Well I should do something productive...laters

GodBless

Man I am so over this whole Frank thing!
All I want to do is get out of this shir
His MOTHER called me and was all like what the hell she beat up my daughter
And I am al like yeah I know what is your point
And then she left this text on my phone about God will punish me for what I have done
and Cole freaked and called her this morning and was all f*ck u and she is all like I read the bible everyday and coel is all like BS you don't know what you are talking about because if you did you wouldn't have said what you said. I mean come one here do you talk just to hear yourself
I laughed it was craZY ,man I am out of here later

godbless

WEll today started off differently today
I got to school late and I was very very sleepy and Meghan still isn't feeling well and Frank is still driving me insain and OMG I AM RAMBLING
Look what my day has done to me
Grrrrrrrrr
I am over this I can't wait till I am in Akron and away from all of this Drama....weird though I am the reason for the drama

I am just way too board.
Man I need sleep as well
I can't wait till Cole gets home but I can at the same time
I really miss her but I don't want her back being all Drama drama drama either

Okay so there really is a lot to say today
Not that anyone reads this anyway so here is goes
I went to Canada with Lindsey...yeah that was interesting
Carlos is an ass... he should learn to keep his mouth shut
I mean come on there are going to be people who are not going to keep their mouths shut all of the time. I just really hate people like that

Other then that It was Fun
Lindsey spent most of her time with Joer but yeah that is why she went in the first place right....
Well I should go...maybe later I will tell you the must interesting part of my holiday....it gets scary

man is life going right to hell
Peter is back and I can't seem to turn away
I can't even fucking turn him away
I hate my life